I also wish to tell them I would like to stop being their punching bag everyday.

'o you see pauline, this is all for yr own good...'

'if we don't love you, why would we scold you?'

'why are you like this?'

'not that i want to say u, but u should be more wise'


how fucking wise can they be? Try morphing into gandalf and i might be amused.

Everyone thinks Pauline is Oh-so-happy-girl-everyday.

Everyday, i wake up, i get shit from my mother. And most of the time, she would just blindly scold me. She scold and scold, nag and nag at the most ridiculous things in the world. Like 'your puppies are so smelly!' where i JUST CLEANED them. Without taking a look at what I have done. She began her usual drivel.

Words like 'i cannot take it! Buay tahan! you must do things with WISDOM!' often spew from her mouth.

O yes mummy, Wisdom. I hope you wise up becos scolding me becos you could just turn around and be 'superfically' nice to all your 'cell-people' when they did worse things than me.

I usually can't take it. I just shut the fuck up and leave the house.

AT around noon or later, I get calls from another person and often get scolded again. Usually its becos i dont do things the way he wants he done or I dont agree with him on minor matters without giving proper justification.

He will pack all his missles, with armour, shield, everything intact and just launch them all at me. If he gets a second line on his phone, he would just instantly drop everything and say 'call u back.'

All these people claim to 'do this becos they love me'. One even said 'aiya your friends are not your friends. They wouldnt give up a dinner date with a client to be with you.' Fine..

and these people? They wouldnt even give up a phone call. I shudder to think about their definition of love and care.

One loves her religion(and everything tht associates with it) too much.

The other , his phone(and everything tht associated with it).

Makes me feel like the nice things i used to do for them are done in vain, although everything i did came from my heart.

THinking back, i think perhaps.. 'dispensible' friends are a lot better. Besides, it always takes one to know one.

shit falling everywhere.

everybody take cover.

Irreversible, the movie made me change my opinions of a lot of things. Made me realise how sick these people can be and I dont like it at all. Not a single bit.

Fluffie was nice enough to treat me to dinner last night. Its been a long longggggg time since he treated me to anything. heh..

Dinner was at the HongKong Street Restaurant just outside his house. Oatmeal prawns, Baby Kailan with scallops, minced meat omelette and pork ribs with black bean sauce and bittergourd. LOve the oatmeal prawns!! Its one of the best Ive tasted! We got 'cheated' cos we saw on the menu that the kailan was $6. BUt when the bill came, it was $18!!! We realised its becos the waitress asked us ' Ni men yao chao mo gu hai shi dai zi?'. We were like was $6 good deal! so we said 'DAI ZI PLS!'. In the end it was $12 more for 5 scallops. $6 was supposed to be just 'qing chao'.

Anyways, I would like to go there and eat again. Its nice.I still like Chinese food. You tend to get a 'homely' and 'warm' feeling. Maybe this friday's dinner with Jassica, mag and robin, we could head down to HongKong Street Restaurant instead?!

how how?

i bought a new watch and its damn nice like mad! HAPPINESS!!!

It has calculator, analog and digital function!!!! How cool is that! And the best part is, it only costs me $36!!!! What a buy!!!!! It also has currency converstion, calculator, different time zones + GMT, storing of 30 tel no. and names , stopwatch and alarm!!

NOw to find my CASIO game watch. The old kind tht can play racing cars and submarines. Anyone who knows where, PLS... u know wht to to. my phone no. is 97458966.

Going to catch Irreversible later with the girls!