I think i will set up a 'glass marble' club or something.

Ive decided that I shall buy some pins to stick behind the marbles becos i think its a pity that they are marble magnets. You get to stick them on yr fridge but i think they deserve better. They should be wearable and you can pin them in yr shirt anytime. I think by next week, i would have enough for me to pin one different marble each day for a full year. I need to go source for pins. Magnets are too costly.

I want to do a series with castles but where am i suppose to find pictures of tiny castles. hai~ think need to print out myself. I tried printing yesterday but once i put the glue one, it smudges the ink and disfigured everything.

Craft is fun. i like.

I suspect that Parsley, my fat tail gerbil is pregnant. Her tummy looks big. I shall moniter her.

At last count, i did the entire bottle of marbles.I AM SO PROUD OF THEM! they are so PRETTY!!!!!! I have completely ran out of magazines.

I decided to do them in series if i am gonna start on the new bottles. like star series, cartoon series, etc.... etc... How can i ever part with any of them?!! I think i better get down to ikea and buy 5 more bottles or something. One day, i'm gonna fill my entire wall with it and i will never get tired of look at them becos each one of them is like a window/telescope looking out at something! I wished i could show them off here but... no digi cam. pity~ pity~

One of my favourite is one with the 'paramount pictures' logo in it!!! hehe . I even have emily strange. haaa thts how wide the collection i have. Now i must find a tin box to put them all in. hurhur.

I took home a pearl ww today from the shop becos it has a nice head and type. Its still a baby. i'll see how it goes. its been a long long time since i had any dwarf hamsters. I hope it grows up well...

Ok. up until now. I did 106 glass marbles. ive gone a lil mad.

LUCKILY i bought 2 bottles of marbles. 1 bottle not enough. even with 106, they still look miniscule. Now ive ran out of magazines to paste them on. I only have 30 magnets so only the few lucky marbles will get to have magnets stuck on them. I need tolook for some more magnets. small round ones. they were so expensive at spotlight that i couldnt bear to buy any. 50cents per magnet! SHEESH!

Mag said she might be going to Boom boom room with her classmates n colleagues. I dont feel like going out with people whom i do not know and have to start making friends all over again. Tedious process. Friends that I know that I would not keep. I am old now. Do not have energy to go through everything all over again. So i better start keeping my friends that i have now so i do not have to make new ones. I am also sick of taking NR buses late at night. I HATE IT. Besides, i have to work tonight. aiya.. i'm just plain lazy... until i get a car or some means of transport...

After work, i can come home and read my mcnaught books. (YES all over AGAIN), do my marbles then sleep then next morning wake up and go to the farm.

I am recovering from flu and throat infection. I cannot yak much vocally thats why I yak so much here.

you know, I fall sick once every 5-6 months. After that, I feel that this black cloud hovering above my head is GONE! This black cloud will usually build up until I fall sick. I dunno why, this has been happening to my since secondary school. Sure enough, everytime i recover, i feel rejuvenated and alive. Everything around me seems brighter and nicer.

ahh, nonsense you all say. 'pauline is mad' 'a bit siao already'

not to me.

I got me MARBLES!!!!! u dunno the lengths i go to to get em! First, i went to spotlight then they didnt have em. then i went to creative hands at ngee ann city which have glass marbles but theirs were blur and everything. Then the saleslady told me to try a shop in an alley between papa joes and the ba kua shop which i did. They didnt have em. Then finally i got my ass down to ikea and bought 2 bottles of glass marbles. You dont know how estatic I am now.

I think feebs is crazy over plants. She spent a long time looking at the plants at ikea. Plants being plants, look more or less the same to me. Theres this miniature pine tree plant which i would like very much but i also know would wither and die if i bought it home and care for it. i dont have green fingers.

I also bought this very retro looking 1960s kind of lamp. It costs only $4.90!!!!! It is white with orange base. very nice!

When i got home, i started doing the mables and i did around 50 non stop! they are so pretty! I did a hamster one, a rabbit one, a collie one.. and even ones with richey and james pics on them! I even did a 'god' one!!!!! I dont even feel like giving them away for christmas presents now becos each one of them is unique. Maybe I would buy the mosiac sized tiles i saw at creative hands and start painting. Those are very pretty too but you have to bake them to make them waterproof and the paints are rather expensive. I'll see how it goes. Besides i think i have zero time to go out. Work everyday. First farm, then shop. If you are one of the lucky few whom i give them to, then you must be really SPECIAL! haaaaa. *shameless* Anyway i think mag will scream when I show them to her!

My mom has gone out to work again. i havent seen her for a long time now. Shes so hardworking unlike me. *starts feeling guilty*.

I felt really sick yesterday. Even now, I STILL cannot smell anything. I figured that when you can;'t smell anything, you must not eat good and expensive food becos then, you wont be able to fully smell and taste them. Very lugi. For now, i shall stick to instant noodles.

I have a black heart. If you were to cut open my chest and peep inside. You can see my heart is very possibly black in colour.

I am not a nice person.

I can be nice if i want to but basically deep inside, I am not.
Everything you see is basically a front.
I manipulate things and people around me to get what i want
Or simply for amusement.
I disregard people's feelings most of the time.

I always pretend.
I always lie.
I am but a slytherin.
Always yearning for something greater.
Lady mcbeth is my hero.

I have a black heart.
Do you have one?

Finally cleaned ALL my hamsters this noon. Wah lau. No joke. very killer.If you wanna die young, try keeping many hamsters and cleaning 30 or more rabbit cages every day. I would probably get nose or lung cancer very soon. A
I found out that:

1. All my hamsters are under nourished (which is probably my fault)
2. If you let kaycob stay in the tank for a LONG time, it actually works and cuts down the smell. (if you can tahan after a few days). For me, its alright becos all my hamsters are in the balcony.
3. I need to use 1/3 pack of the biggest pack of kaycob for 25 tanks.
4. Some of my syrians are really REALLy old. Wrinkled up like prunes.
5. Moulds grow on kaycob if you wet them and not let them have a chance to dry. Have a wet, musky smell. haa
6. I really should spend more time on my hamsters.

Nicci's VERY-MATTED backside suddenly decided to drop out and i thought she grew another tail. It was big and extremely matted. She growled at me when i tried to touch it.Not even hamster food helped, she refused. I had to carry her and put her on a high place the try to trim off bit by bit. Now her butt area is nice and unmatted. First time in many years. YAY! The previous one was soaked in pee. Not that i didnt try to cut it out, nicci being nicci is so very difficult to handle. Now the matt decided to drop out on its own, probably becos new fur was growing inside. Last time she had this big matt on her chest. i spent 2 hours cutting everything out. I kept it somewhere. Sometimes i bring it out to show my friends, they said look like a furry keychain . HAHAHA

I think she might have grown a tad bit too attatched with her matted piece of fur. She's just like me. Emotional and all.

I also found out she got heavier, perhaps fatter which is good so she wouldnt look like a sick goth bunny after all. She hadnt attempt to try to open her cage door this time round. She is 4-5 years old now. Maybe getting too old for adventures, like me. She is starting to have mood swings lately. Sometimes ok, sometimes growling at me trying to box my hand out of her way.


iggy's fine as usual. Acts and behaves just like a rabbit. He didnt like adventures even when he was young. He likes sitting in his cage, sleeping or i suspect daydreaming about when he can lose his virginity. Poor iggy. hes gonna remain celibate for life if i have my way.

Christmas's resolution: spend more time with MYrabbits.

I bought kaycob. I decided not to get breeder's choice but I nicked one free pack from the shop. its a free trial pack la. Ive heard feedbacks saying they are not absorbant at all and pee leaks from them which makes me very nervous.

I have to change my hamsters' tanks tomorrow if not will be smelly like hell. I also bought their prestige food. 2 packs and i insist i get 2 packs free of sunflower seeds to go along with them. Yes i'm a cheapo. haha U dunno how much my syrians eat. they can easily finish one pack in one feeding. Need to ration properly! All my pay goes to their food. I still need to buy christmas pressies, I tink i will attempt to MAKE those pressies. hehe. Everyone shall have one.

Ok off to spotlight i go tomorrow. Suppose to cook dinner for louis tomorrow. also dunno wht he wanna eat. never say. aiya.
Maggie mee perhaps? haha.

My dad is listening to some retro pop. with those backing vocals and all. hahhaa. the singer is trying his best to sound sexy and everything. hahaha. it goes 'heeeeeyyy heeeeyy heeeeyyyyyy..gypsy woman *backing vocals : hey gypsy woman, gypsy woman" hahahaa. bloody cracks me up. ultimate killer.

hahhaa

hey gypsy woman.

*cracks up*

I'm going mad.

Amazing race is ending tomorrow. so sad. It is my fav reality tv programme. I will miss the people. I grew to like and hate some of them. When the new season starts, then I will have to go over the process of getting to know them all over again. To feel what i feel.

Survivor, on the other hand doesn't amuse me so much as it did. I was an ardent fan i dare say when the first few seasons were shown. I religiously go to all survivor message boards to find out the latest gossip or if some fanatic fan found out some clue about who the last survivor would be or who would be booted out next. My fav one was Survivor (australian outback). Jerri, coby, alicia... tina.. i think they were the best survivor contestants. They are the only ones whose name i didnt forget completely when the season ended. not forgeting roger who gave elizabeth a heart-shaped rock.

My icq is giving me problems. I wonder whats going on. I cannot even get it connected. anyone experiencing the same problems lately? If dont see me on icq, doesnt mean i'm not online. hehe.

wah lau so LAU KWEE LIKE MAD!

Singapore lost 4-nil to Malaysian. NB! Why are they so lousy. To thnk so many people turned up. Whats with them foreign talents anyway. Results are the best prove that with or without them, our soccer team is still as lousy as EVER. The good players either retired or kelong then got caught. If you want foreign talent, at least get first grade one la. get those pple already dun want liao. wah lauuuuu. I think we should just shut down the soccer team in singapore. Wasting money. Just a sad excuse for getting employment for the mats.

annoying.

I had a long talk with mag over the phone last night. Being my usual 'motherly' self. I began nagging.

Talked about opening up to friends and strangers.
About guarding one's own interest and feelings.
about staying neutral or not.

i came to a conclusion that.

ME.

An Arien, is a passionate person. I cannot have neutral feelings towards anything. Or rather it is very hard for me to stay neutral and subtle, be it a person or a thing. I will usually feel very strongly about something, especially feelings. Mag mentioned that she is rather 'guarded' becos if u stay neutral and subtle then your own feelings would never be hurt which makes perfect sense. What you dont know cannot hurt you.

BUT

I cannot stay neutral. If one were to be indifferent and neutral to pple and things. Then one cannot understand the joy of loving and giving. Of cos, when there is love, there will also be hate. I think both feelings come in a package. I would like to experience both in their full glory.

Happy. Grateful. Aware.

waH LAU!

I got 2 parties asking me to go out tonight and i CANNOT! My uncle sms me to ask me to go to the national stadium tonight to be part of the kallang roar. Then phoebe sms me to ask me to go have dinner with her and mag and their colleagues. I CANNOT GO!!! argh! I SO WANT TO GO AND ROAR AT THE MALAYSIANS! aiyer.

because.

I have to work tonight. from 6-10pm. i just got back home from the farm. thought i'd update my blog, bathe then i'll have to leave for work. I have such a tiring life everyday! Work work work. I dont even have time for nicci and iggy. feels so guilty like shit.

An old indian worker at the farm kept chatting me up and asking me if i have any boyfriend. Just now, he said 'i be your bf la' i was like 'leeeeeeer' . I laughed it off anyway. Why do i always attract the wrong pple!?? hahahhaaaa Maybe i am too dark. need to try some whitening lotion on myself.

aiya i read 100 pages of the first williamson book. I realised she writes about the love of a girl with a man who has a wife. But they liked each other becos of i-havent-got-to-that-part yet. Then the wife apprently wants them to be together becos its true love. The wife, btw is heavy with child. sheesh! tht was not the romance I expected!!! aiya. dissapoinment! Nevermind, will go try some more books when i have to time to visit the library again. I have to work tomorrow. First at the farm, then at yvonne's. If not no money to buy somemore books, hamster food and kaycob.

Mag has been sleeping LATE lately. Having SLeep paralysis again, right mag?! Better dont sleep so late. Force yourself to sleep and STOP playing so much of The Sims. Later you'll be the one the grim reaper will be visiting. Not that I want to scare you but from what i hear, you have been delusional. No worries. I think noone reads my blog except a couple of pple anyway. Please dont sleep at 3am and wake up at 7am. Sleep at 3am and wake up at 2pm would be better. Not that I want to scare you but not enough sleep will make u look old and haggard. Your eyes are already very small, pls dont make them any smaller. its good to have no life, that means come back straight home after work. No suppers, no going to marina beaches, no going HMV.. Not that i want to nag but Ive had orders from above.

I went to compass point and bought some pasta, pasta sauce, button mushrooms and mussles. I just cooked them and ate seafood pasta! YUMMY LIKE MAD!!!!!

My throat still feels funny but no fever which is good. I need not go to the farm today. Rest day! hehe

I borrowed 2 new books from the library from Penelope williamson. I hope they are nice if not i'm gonna be so dissapointed like mad again!

yay. Coominya cloe got Terrier of the Year. Congrats Louis. pls dont gas yrself now!!

I wrote a hell lot about the show in the noon the STUPID blogger got some error thingy and screwed everything up. I am lazy to retype everything but everything went fine and was one of the latest dog shows ive been too. Ended around 9!!!

I am under the weather today. Got bad flu and slight fever. My head's pounding now. My throat feels weird. Like the feeling u get when ure gonna fall really ill! But i still want to go to the library tomorrow.

Not enough sleep for the past 2 days. Walking to the farm and back is very tiring. rain or shine. SOmetimes rain AND shine. already suspected i'll fall sick sooner or later. Its sooner than I thought.

The weather these days are unpredictable. so are people.

enjoy everything last it lasts folks. some things dont last long.

Weather forecast " thunderstorms in the late afternoon*